I WISH...

I watched this video and it made me think... I wish I could be a kid again. You know... do it all right, turn out better, learn the lessons and not repeat the mistakes again and again. Be steady in life and finish school. Understand that the idea of "rebel" was never my friend. Listened to my mother and father and not need twenty-six years to realize they were right. Man, I wish I could be a kid again. Chose better paths, acquire wisdom and actually receive wise and act on counsel instead of hear and not apply it; not do what I knew was wrong or hang out with those I knew weren't right. To never do drugs, experiment with sex; resist the temptations that harmed both me, and those I loved. Man, I wish I could be a kid again. To love only one woman as my father did and never know and fail with so many. Made a much better life with something left to show for it and ultimately leave an inheritance that my children will never forget.

But the truth is, if I had done it all differently I wouldn't be me; who I am, know what I know or be able give what I can because of all I have experienced and learned. I wouldn't know the meaning of "healed" had I not been "broken", or the mercy of God had I not come face to face with the depths and depravity of my own sins. I wouldn't understand the power of His love or His patience towards me, or His peace that guards me and passes my finite ability to understand; none of which I deserve, nor have I earned. I couldn't say, because of Him and by His grace "I live and move and have my being". I would never know, never be, never have seen what I have were it not for the path I chose for myself. In a perfect world I would get the chance to change my past, prevent the curse I brought on myself; but I'm thankful today for all that I know and all that I am which He Himself has forged by His own hands, and transformed by His love. And I, just like the woman who washed His feet with her tears, am free to love because He forgives all my sins... past, present, and future.

Though I would never want any of you to go through all that I have, I sincerely wish that you all come to know the same truth.

© 2014 Steven Bliss

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